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my name is lizzie, I also go by lowlow. I'm a seventeen year old girl who fell in love with romance novels. I truly believe in love, fate and destiny. A senior, I'm waiting for school to finish so I could graduate and just get the highschool drama over with. I'm hoping to get into law, so keep your fingers crossed. <3
06 July 2008 @ 05:10 am
I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.
If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.
This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.
If you believe it's in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I'm better off on my own.
On my own...
I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.
If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.
My god I love this song.
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.
If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.
This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.
If you believe it's in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I'm better off on my own.
On my own...
I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.
If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.
My god I love this song.
13 June 2008 @ 01:47 am
You know I feel a bit lost right now. I don't know why, I just do. I've actually been feeling it for a few days, but it just hit me hard tonight. Right now.
I want to cry. I want to hold someone and cry so damn hard. I just can't do it. I try, but I can't.
Now, I want to cry alone. I still can't. When has crying been SO hard for me?
Something is tightening at my chest. I can feel it. My chest is burning.
I know a lot of you are going to hate me. A lot of you are going to talk to me on MSN and tell me that I'm stupid. I know it because it happens so many times. Some of you will give up and will go "the hell with it. I've been trying for ages and nothing's working."
yeah...
The hell with me.
I should be in hell.
I've relapsed. And I deserve going to hell for that.
I knew I would relapse. I knew it. I should have stopped myself, but I can't. The presence... a part of me misses her. She was the closest thing I had back then. She went away for a while and now she's back. Maybe for a few weeks or days.
I'm burning up.
I can't sleep so well. And if I do sleep, it's not comfortable.
*sigh*
I, Jeez. I have this urge to just... ugh. I don't even know why I'm the fuck down. I just want to scratch myself, eat some pills, drown whatever is appearing. I want to be numb again. To not feel anything.
But, I don't want to do it. A part of me is urging me to. To throw up, to hurt myself and eat pills.
I must sound so fucking mad. I am mad. Mad as hell.
Insomnia, I realized, shall be my new best friend this coming weeks. Mia would be delighted. Maybe Ana would love a visit, too.
*blabbers*
I want to cry. I want to hold someone and cry so damn hard. I just can't do it. I try, but I can't.
Now, I want to cry alone. I still can't. When has crying been SO hard for me?
Something is tightening at my chest. I can feel it. My chest is burning.
I know a lot of you are going to hate me. A lot of you are going to talk to me on MSN and tell me that I'm stupid. I know it because it happens so many times. Some of you will give up and will go "the hell with it. I've been trying for ages and nothing's working."
yeah...
The hell with me.
I should be in hell.
I've relapsed. And I deserve going to hell for that.
I knew I would relapse. I knew it. I should have stopped myself, but I can't. The presence... a part of me misses her. She was the closest thing I had back then. She went away for a while and now she's back. Maybe for a few weeks or days.
I'm burning up.
I can't sleep so well. And if I do sleep, it's not comfortable.
*sigh*
I, Jeez. I have this urge to just... ugh. I don't even know why I'm the fuck down. I just want to scratch myself, eat some pills, drown whatever is appearing. I want to be numb again. To not feel anything.
But, I don't want to do it. A part of me is urging me to. To throw up, to hurt myself and eat pills.
I must sound so fucking mad. I am mad. Mad as hell.
Insomnia, I realized, shall be my new best friend this coming weeks. Mia would be delighted. Maybe Ana would love a visit, too.
*blabbers*
mood: depressed
28 March 2008 @ 10:21 pm
Title: A Taicho Returns
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
( Chapter 6 )
location: Office
mood: crushed
25 March 2008 @ 10:52 pm
Title: A Taicho Returns
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
( Chapter 5 )
24 March 2008 @ 09:37 pm
Title: A Taicho Returns
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
( Chapter 4 )
location: Playroom
mood: hungry
23 March 2008 @ 07:08 pm
Title: A Taicho Returns
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
( Chapter 3 )
location: Desk
mood: chipper
22 March 2008 @ 10:40 pm
oTitle: A Taicho Returns
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
( Chapter 2 )
21 March 2008 @ 11:37 pm
Title: A Taicho Returns
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow[Unknown LJ tag]</lj>
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
But... they were wrong.
This story is about Hitsu getting saved from Hueco Mundo, taken back to Seireitei and is taking his recovery in baby steps. But will he manage to fully recover before the other war? And what about the dragon Tattoo?
Link: (will have one soon. After Fanfiction.com let's me. <.<)
Author: Lizzie aka murderouslowlow[Unknown LJ tag]</lj>
Genre: WHUMMPAAAAAGEEE/Action/Drama
Pairing(s): Nope. No pairings for Hitsu
Rating: PG13+
Warnings: Hitsu gets hurt a lot? lol.
Disclaimer: Not mine! All Kubo Tite's! I'm just playing in his sandbox when he's not watching. *CACKLE*
Summary: It's been three years since he had gone into the war. It's been three years since he was defeated by Ichimaru Gin. It's been three years since he's zunpakuto broke, making this dragon tattoo appear on his wrist. It's been three years since he's been a prisoner in Hueco Mundo. It's been three years since everyone in Seireitei thought he was dead.
But... they were wrong.
This story is about Hitsu getting saved from Hueco Mundo, taken back to Seireitei and is taking his recovery in baby steps. But will he manage to fully recover before the other war? And what about the dragon Tattoo?
Link: (will have one soon. After Fanfiction.com let's me. <.<)
( Chapter 1 )
location: room
mood: happy